Being sick suxxxxxx

Hey babyheads!

Sorry I haven't been updating this thing as much as I ought to, but I've been dying with something awful (bronchitis/flu maybe?) for like 2 weeks now.

I have been busy with school, looking for work, a car, tons of stuff.

Life is super stressful these days but I'm a lot happier.

I still have those "dreams."  Just last night in fact I had one that was super confusing.  I hope they stop soon because its not helping me at all to move on.  Maybe I won't.  Maybe he was it. 

Maybe, Maybe, Maybe.

New blogs.

I have decided to start 2 new blogs.

One is to help with my eating disorder recovery: Zulimia

sorry if this is a shock to some...

And the other is to help record my spiritual walk with Christ: • Always † Agape •

You don't need to read them if you don't want, but I'm just letting you know that they are out there.

I won't be abandoning this blog, I'll still update it frequently!

Take care babyheads!

God is good.

Wow. I can't wait until morning so I can write all about it. I can't
even sleep it's like the night before Christmas I'm giddy with
excitement. Is this what really having the Holy Spirit living in you
feels like??? If so... This us going to take some getting used to.
Hallelujuh!

Sent from your mom.

Testing

I'm just testing to see if blogging from my phone really works...
*crosses fingers*. LOL if it says your mom it's cuz I forgot how to
end the blog without including my signature. Womp womp...

Sent from your mom.

Being sick sucks weenie.

Ok so Kacey has been BUGGIN' for me to update... LOL jk.  Anyway here goes.

For those of you who weren't privy to my current health state, I have been DYING with the flu/bronchitis I dunno something awful for the past 3 days.  I think I'm finally getting better after missing a week of school (sounds like a lot but its only 2 days) and just staying in bed and sleeping the day away.  My mom's chicken soup has been my only source of food, well, and the chocolate I kept sneaking into my bed... I think that was a mistake because the milk probably didn't help with my chest congestion.  WOMP womp...

ANYWAY.

Being sick and sleeping and staring at the ceiling really makes you think.  Well, even in my sleep I couldn't escape my thoughts as they would pervade my dreams.  Why can't I even begin to get over him???  Its been what... since June that its been "officially" over?  And we are... 8 months later and still not an inch closer to moving on.

Is it because I've liked him since 6th grade??? 

I keep telling myself that it must be that.  I've liked him too long to get over him this soon.  It was a mistake to get with him in the first place.  I placed him too high on a pedestal that it would be impossible for it to work out.  Actually in my mind, I wasn't supposed to ever be with him.  It was like this dream I was always chasing that would never be.  And then, when it came true, I didn't know what to do with myself.

Anyway, maybe someday I'll BEGIN to get over him, but until then, my heart will remain a black hole.

Ugh, I hate being emo.  I was never the heartbroken type.  But then again, I was never the relationship type either.  I only ever liked one person, and now it seems I'll be scarred for life because of it.

Don't listen to my dark ramblings kids.  Be young, love and be merry.  Don't be like me all curled up in bed moping and wishing "what if" and "if only" its a sad existence trust me.

Happy Friday people.

nostalgia

Well, now that Valentine's Day has come and gone, I can't help but reminisce over the AMAZING one I had last year with you-know-who.

I wish I could get over him, honestly I do, but for some reason I just can't.

I dream with him, not of him but with - like we meet in our dreams and he updates me on current events and vice versa.  Ok, that might have come off really creepy sounding but I'm just being honest.  They are so real too.  Take for example the one I had today.

It had to do with a family member passing away and when I awoke I felt almost compelled to call him and offer my condolences.  Every time we meet in my dreams... Its like he wants to help me to move on.  But I still can't.

Maybe if I could express myself to him even in writing and at least get a response back, just so that I know he'd acknowledged my existence, then maybe I can begin to move forward.  But I'm too afraid to even bother because I am almost certain I won't get anything in return.

Sorry for the "Debby Downer" post but I had to get it off my chest.  I blame the weather.  And the fact that I'm sick.

Why did I ever get a Facebook account?  It could have all been avoided....

On a happier note... 24 scored so many points by reviving a few of my favorite characters (Morris and Aaron).  Now if only they could somehow bring back President David Palmer...

Part 4 aka APOCALYPSE NOW!

YAY!  Ok so its just Celisse, Dan and me and we're heading home.... WAIT no we aren't.... WE WANT PIZZA!  Its like 0235 so everything is closed... but Wal-Mart!

We drove to the one on Rush St but it was closed.... LAME!  Off to Pico Rivera we go!

So it was pretty cold outside and Wal-Mart was empty but it was awesome!

We went nuts and bought everything our hearts desired.  This included, Freschetta Pepperoni Pizza, Rainbow Goldfish crackers, Milky Way bar, Nestle Tollhouse Cookie Dough, Mission Tortilla Chips, Philadelphia Cream Cheese, Pace Picante Salsa, Lays Chile Limon Chips, Flamin' Hot Cheetos.... I think thats it.  Oh and some Starbucks Doubleshots for Celisse on Monday.

We went home, were all excited about our food and did our business.... Oh man its probably like... 0315 by now and we are still wide awake, laughing our butts off and taking awesome pictures.  We pigged OUT!  Like seriously, I dunno why but we did.

At about 0500 we finally decided to call it a night.  I was pretty exhausted but so happy that Valentine's was pretty awesome!

Thanks for everyone who helped make this V-Day very memorable for me.  It means the world HONESTLY it does.

Lemme just also note that I woke up at 0724 after falling asleep.  Why you might ask?  Because, my body, as the world does, hates me and loves to hear me say.... FML!

Part 3 aka Dive Bar in Rosemead

OMG am I barely writing this thing?  Sorry for all of those waiting for my part 3 but here it is.

Ok so its like 2200 and I show up at Al's Cocktail Bar in Rosemead to meet with Desiree and it was pretty awesome.  She introduced me to her Ryan (who is amazing by the way) and some of his friends and her coworkers.  I had such a good time getting to know every one that the time went by so quickly.  I had an Amaretto Sour to start the night off and waited to drink anything else until Celisse got there.  

At about 2335, Celisse and Dan had finally arrived!!!  We ordered a few more Whiskey Sours and Rum & Coke.  The jukebox was getting most of the action that night.  We waited ALL NIGHT for Bucky Done Gun and when it finally came on... OH HELL NO!  Celisse Dan and I went nuts!  Everyone was staring but ya I didn't really care.  We were awesome and thats all that matters pretty much.  So after singing and dancing are booties off, we ordered some Heineken and Newcastles and chilled a bit.

Somewhere in that time Sandie showed up and she brought BILLY.  OMG for those of you who aren't aware of who Billy is, let me just say if you are ever at BJ's Brewhouse in Montebello and he's your server, get another one.  He is a douche... but ya anyway I was this close to socking him but I didn't.  I was cool.

It's probably 0100 at this time and Maby, Liza and Steve finally show up.  I am sooooooooo glad they did because I haven't seen my girls in forever!!!!!!!

The bar was closing and the night was far from being over as far Celisse Dan and I were concerned.

I left out way too many details.  I know I'm lazy but ya... If you really wanna know the juicy bits, ask me.

Part 4!!!!! PEOPLE!!!!!!

Part Deux aka Kacey + Udon = ♥

So I know I said I was anti Valentine's Day but at the last second I mustered up the courage to ask Kacey to be my Valentine.  To my surprise she said YES and I was elated!  We decided to get din din and I had never tried Udon so thats what we decided to eat.

She comes by to pick me up at 1830 and its off to J-Town!  It was so cool there.  I had never been and the ambiance was quite interesting.  We went to this shopping center that had karaoke and sushi bars and other places of interest.  The little Japanese restaurant we went to was so adorable!  My brother would have fallen in love with the hostess, she was absolutely charming!

The tea was perfect temperature (I can't drink hot or cold things... everything has to be tepid).  Very delicious and then the hostess brings us some pickled cabbage (also very yummy).  The anticipation of the dish was rising and in a few minutes we had our udon!

It looked so cool!  Like, there was everything under the sun in it, kind of like this Molcajete dish in Mexican cuisine, and I was actually a bit overwhelmed.  I didn't know what to try first so I went for the noodles.  SUPER YUMMY!  After that I slowly and methodically attacked the rest of the yumminess swimming around in the soup.

Kacey, it was awesome!  Thanks so much for introducing me to Udon.  I'm gonna definitely be eating that on a more regular basis.  GOOD CALL ON THE MUSHROOM!!! 

So when we were done we wanted MANJU!!! Yay cuz its the best duh!  So we drove around... what 5 times maybe? looking for parking and nope... It wasn't meant to be right Kacey?  It just wasn't meant to be.... Welp, there's always Tozai!!!

So we decide to try getting yogurt or some tea but closer to home since I was to meet Desiree at a bar in Rosemead at 2100.

After several evasive maneuvers and FML moments, Kacey gives up on Yogurt and we check out this place Darren had been raving about called Half and Half.  It was soooooo quaint and cozy!  I wish I wasn't planning on drinking after that because otherwise I would have joined Kacey for a cup of tea.  Instead I watched her drink and downloaded iPhone apps.  I am definitely coming back for some Almond Milk Tea!

It was time 2145 to rendezvous with Desiree at Al's Cocktail Lounge... continued in Part 3.

Valentine's Day Part 1

So... I had to run errands like most people do.  The night before I slept at 0300 and who knows what time the babies went to sleep (babies being Celisse, Arturo and Bola)... Anyway I guess I woke up at like 1135 and the babies were still sleeping but Arturo poked his little head up and I guess he was ready to wake up.  I let Celisse know we had to go to the Post Office and ya I had to send off a package I sold on Half.com.  So we were supposed to leave at 1300 but didn't really go til like 1420.  Anyway the people at Office Depot lost my print order and they were being all retarded but ya.... its Office Depot I shouldn't have expected much.

After finally teaching the staff there how to do their job, we headed over to the Post Office.  It was closed.  I called the guy before going there and he said they closed at 1500.  Whatever so we went to another post office and they were still opened.

I bought a padded envelope and then asked for some tape and the postal worker was being retarded but ya... again it was a postal worker... I shouldn't 6ha9ve6 9e6xpe9ct6ed9 much.  (Encrypted message extra points for being able to read through Celisse's 69ers)  Anyway.  So after talking to the other attendant she was being all cool about it and hooked it up with some tape.  By the way I hate that other guy... This isn't the first time he got on my bad side.  One more time and I'm going to his superior.

Anyway package sent successfully and final destination was purchasing a new piece of home decor for our apartment.  We drove to this store on Whittier but it went out of business... so we decided to go to a new store near ELAC.  Just our luck!  The owner of the closed store now owned this one!  So ya we purchased our lovely piece of flair and decided to get some lunch.  To McDonald's straightaway!

After that we incorporated the new accent into our home and felt pretty happy about that.  Actually pretty REALLY happy about it....

Arturo was getting antsy and so Celisse let him know she would take him home but she had to get ready for an art show...  This is like... 1800.

Part 2 will follow shortly.

Friday the 13th

Ok it was officially freaky.

Last night, I won't name any names, but SOMEONE made it sound like they wanted to hang out and this SOMEONE lives all the way in Fontana.  Anyhow, I decide to drive out there and get the door basically.  I am not welcomed apparently.  *sigh*

Its like 0100 and as a young lady I shouldn't be out in an unfamiliar area let alone unaccompanied at those hours.  Oh and I forgot to mention this was after I had pulled an all-nighter for midterms.  We're talking 5 Lo-Carb Monsters and no sleep for 36 hours and counting.

Anyway, I decide it would be a VERY bad idea to drive all the way from FonTUCKY to GhettoBello without risking death by sleeping at the wheel, that I show up at my Grandma's house in Ontario.  It was just a hop skip and a jump down the I-15 so I figured it wouldn't hurt.  Too bad it was about 0200 when I was walking in the door and frightened by mom half to death.  She doesn't usually stay there but she was planning to leave bright and early for San Francisco the following day.  As if I didn't have enough to feel bad about.

And so I was feeling pretty crappy being all rejected and what not, waking up my mommy, not having enough gas both body wise and car wise to get home, when I received a text from the very bad host I was to rendezvous with.  "Are you okay?" it says.... HA!  As a matter of fact I'm just DANDY!

Did I mention I had an interview at 1000 the next morning?  Oh ya... I did.

That of course had to be rescheduled because I was nodding off the whole time on the drive back home at 0700.

So now the interview is at 1530 and I decide to leave at 1500.  Am I late?  Of course!  It wouldn't be my wonderful life if I wasn't.

Southern Californians and rain are like immiscible.  Sad but true.  So I show up to the interview and tell them a crazy story about how I had to drive all the way from Ontario and that the traffic was horrible and blah blah blah.... They bought it.  FINALLY something goes my way.

Then the interview, or audition as they like to call it, begins.  I have to work with other potential hires on some divergent project and guess who ends up leading and having to do most of the work?  YOU GUESSED IT!  Little old me.

Am I complaining too much?  No?  Ok I shall continue.

So after having to deal with such incompetence, I come home and some person on eBay is all like, can you expedite my order because I really need it.  I thought about it, being the rude person that I am, and tried to come up with a clever response but was just so over today that I decided what the heck; I'll expedite the damned thing.

I did a good thing for someone.  A favor some may call it.  Its strange, whatever it is.  Very unlike me.  Don't expect anymore any time soon people.

After I e-mailed the potential customer who just COULD NOT WAIT for their order to let them know I would expedite the book, did they order from me?  Let me check... NO!

See, this is why I don't like doing favors.  It never fails.

But, there is a silver lining; a big, fat JUICY one.  The book I was selling was going for $9.00.  The one I sold to some person down the street... $100.00.  I guess you can say I was feeling pretty, pretty, pretty good about that one.

After that I was all nice and cozy inside, money tends to do that to me, and decided to ask someone to be my valentine.

Kacey said she would.

Oh happy day!

P.S. I just had a beer all by my lonesome... should I start attending AA meetings?  Please advise.

V-Day

is gonna be literally that.... Vagina Day.

Guys can be... wait, ARE ALWAYS retarded.

I have sooooo much I need to rant about but I am WAY too stressed at the moment to bother.  After a nice cup of tea and a warm bubble bath... I shall explain myself.

Girls are AWESOME!

KACEY MADE ME DO IT!

No really she went all Jack Bauer on me and threatened to hurt my unborn child if I didn't get a blog.... so here I am.

I'm not gonna promise awesomeness.... but I will GUARANTEE IT!

Most of it will be about food because that makes up like 99% of my thoughts and the rest will be about how the universe is constantly trying to get me to say FML.

I'm random and rude.... DEAL WITH IT!